The Male.

somethings you see in people and then the way they act toward you can be worlds apart. i have a person in my life that calls me his wife. yet. i don't hear from them everyday. they don't keep there word on the things they say they will etc. etc. i have someone in my life that lives with a women. -not his mother lol that tells me he can see me for who i am and wants to know more. i have another person in my life that tells me I'm so fun and they can see themselves with me for the rest of there life. now me being who i am i am taking you at your words. i no longer go out on a limb emotionally because it hurts way to much. instead i choose to live in the moment and not let anyone get close to my core. when i sit alone and think i can have all the money and material things in the world if i wanted. the only thing my heart wants is to be loved by someone that was made for me. some days i really think that he is not born on this realm or has already passed or he won't see me. the first person i talked about at one time i felt it was him, but then again the person made fore me would show more interest in me, he would care about my day to day, he would want to be around me without me asking. now i know that people can't read minds and all but it's a little thing called courtesy  if your wanting someone one nothing should stand in your way life is way to short.-FYI no one is getting Christmas.