i slipped

Usually i am very reserved. i let some people in for specific reasons. and i try not to get emotional and let everything bother me. now more often then most times i lash out verbally. i did this with a friend of mine that i care about. in my version of it he said he was going to do something and didn't with the week i had he caught a little bit of sarcasm and i hurt his feelings. I felt that i was wrong so i apologized i asked for his forgiveness he said he didn't know if he could forgive me but he still loved me. no i know that i shouldn't let the little things rule my emotional health. now i have an issue with people telling me they are going to do something and then don't especially something small like a phone call but i can see you all day online like it's no ones business. lol i think i will be charging this to the game and getting over it. its hurts me to know that something as small as a phone call can put me off from wanting to be close to a person. i may be a little anal when it comes to this but who knows maybe i need way more time alone and knowing myself better then i already feel that i do. no more slipping on my part in front of others. no more putting my self in a position where i am made to feel bad because i want quality time from someone who doesn't seem interested in spending time with me.