Full moons

Full Moons and Fertile days for me anyway is the most tourcher because its like im in heat. with NO one around. i usually focus on work or find a good scene and get it done. its a good thing i only have one offspring becuase it everything would have went according to my plan i would have been married and probably pushing out kid number infinity. but things have seem to set me on a path of learning. know myself and what i want in this life a little bit at a time. the people that i meet, the things that i see, and the places i go, all have a meaning behind them so even when i don't want to i am trying my best to enjoy every little thing about it.

this is to

the great loves of my life. Leo, Robert, Nate and Garson. Thank you for showing a lil bit more about myself that i didn't know. how do deal with passion, lust, understanding, and heatache. this has made me a better women. someone who can understand better the things that make a relationship work and support a healthy mental balance between two people. even tho things didn't work out and non of us came close to marriage. i respect and love you for the lessons you taught me. Thank you for everything your wife once upon a life time -Kitten

DISRESPECT

how does one deal with disrespect in a relationship. my usual step it i will tell you about what i am not happy about and if it keeps getting done i make plans to leave. and then execute. this last issue i had hurt me a bit because i feel kinda fast even tho all of the warning signs where there. sweet one min nasty and insulting the next. or if he got uspest he would recite all of his feelings out loud as if he had it to do all over again. the first couple of times it happened he apologized and i blew it off. then it just got worse. now i am usually a calm person. and the older i get me and the drama do not dance anymore. i usually say what i have to say and keep it moving. but when someone gets you to the point where you only see red and you want to physically assalt them its time to go. i don't condone violence but sometimes people don't understand untill you lay hands. but i took the higher road and walked away. he called and asked i confirmed and its over. to be in love to me takes time i can have love for you in a day but it takes some years and some some serious time together to be in love. now on several occasions i have found my past kings and men that i truly feel that i was with before. in another life. they are not the one i was made for in this life. he is still not within my grasp. but i know a violent relationship is NOT what it will be.