I have never been on to be shy when it comes to the subject of sex. At 35, I am longing for adventure and romance and the thrill of being chased,wooed, and touched. lol anyone that I have meet my age and older either has one of these things or another. its a bit frustrating if I have to do it myself. then I ask the question: Why?
Why even let someone, if they are not even on my level when it comes to sex take up my time?.
Its not like a I have a whole lot of time left I could Ascend tomorrow. Hell or even tonight. I can spend time telling people what I want and get half asses results or I can Travel to another place and throw myself out with little or no caution.
However after that thrill is gone, how do I get that feeling back?
It's like a bad addicion even with me being celibate and holding out on sex, just to experience the chase. when it is fresh and every moment is juicy and ripe and the taste seem to taunt memories and every vision is so vivid and you remember EVERYTHING about that person in pursuit of you. Then you come down and the person no longer sees you as someone to be desired and you loose interest and begin the hunt again.
Why? Why do we do it?? Why can't it be done over and over to use.
I use to give so much energy to the person that I was with. Everything about them turned me on I would have them in my thoughts every waking minute. To touch them would send me on a special high until I could do it again. Until the Passion from their energy didn't feed me enough. It didn't send chills up my spine because now they are chasing another or they have gotten "use" to me. Then they don't feel like they have to get me heated enough to get me to orgasm them it comes out to be completely about them. the communication stops and time is no longs spent between us and the Friendship gates come down and then their is nothing......
I don't like that part. All I need is someone from my planet. Someone that shares my passion and my appetite.
Why even let someone, if they are not even on my level when it comes to sex take up my time?.
Its not like a I have a whole lot of time left I could Ascend tomorrow. Hell or even tonight. I can spend time telling people what I want and get half asses results or I can Travel to another place and throw myself out with little or no caution.
However after that thrill is gone, how do I get that feeling back?
It's like a bad addicion even with me being celibate and holding out on sex, just to experience the chase. when it is fresh and every moment is juicy and ripe and the taste seem to taunt memories and every vision is so vivid and you remember EVERYTHING about that person in pursuit of you. Then you come down and the person no longer sees you as someone to be desired and you loose interest and begin the hunt again.
Why? Why do we do it?? Why can't it be done over and over to use.
I use to give so much energy to the person that I was with. Everything about them turned me on I would have them in my thoughts every waking minute. To touch them would send me on a special high until I could do it again. Until the Passion from their energy didn't feed me enough. It didn't send chills up my spine because now they are chasing another or they have gotten "use" to me. Then they don't feel like they have to get me heated enough to get me to orgasm them it comes out to be completely about them. the communication stops and time is no longs spent between us and the Friendship gates come down and then their is nothing......
I don't like that part. All I need is someone from my planet. Someone that shares my passion and my appetite.
