he Sees me

So many conversations they always tend to run together. well this particular one we were talking about sex. i asked him if he knew of a women called lethal lips and he said yes. and i told him about how she makes me horny cause she can put anything in her mouth and be like taa daa lol  now in my mind i have an oral fixation i like things in my mouth lol he pointed out that i was not a pro lol hence a video lol i said i had to be warmed up lol lol he said no lol now im so glad that he is not fazed by general talk. but now it is so my mission to swallow him lol just cause he thinks i can't do it. shout out to all the ladies i know with no gag relflex. lol  now on to what scares me. because i am a giver some people require more then others.so at this point in my life i have let go with a total of maybe 3 people. those relationships all ended badly. so my issues have issues when it comes to letting go and just being me with someone. so far with him its not so bad. my inner little girl gets to be out in the sun. s far as the sex goes well we will see. i hope i don't get into something that scars me or something worse. rambling is what i do lol so i know this blog is all over the place. lol

Unconditional

we crossed paths a long time ago. everything was touch and go. this year it was on a priority list to see what was on the other persons mind. he promises undying devotion and a passion like i have never experienced. we talk everyday and not a moment goes by that i don't have him on my mind. him being and older gentleman there is absolutely no drama. i love with everything i see us doing. the marriage, traveling, love making, how open to things he is. we in my mind are royalty and the world is our playground and nothing is taboo when it comes to our happiness. very content with just being us and he allows me to just be me and he sees both sides and understands my needs. WONDERFUL lol i am just happy with everything going on i am so in love.

i hate being right

about relationships in general.i have walls in place for a reason. it's rare that i let people get extra close to me. always the great disappointed. so i always give enough rope to hang them self. i always root for the guys/girls but they never win. there is one he makes me smile. in all serious talking i'm clam with him no issues, no red flags, no skips and holes. love him. with my cheer leading outfit on with no panties i am so on his team to win this thing.